I Want this feeling so go away.
I Never felt this alone in my life, i’m failing at everything, at life, all i have is meltdowns and mood swings i scream, cry, slam doors and worst hurt my dogs,
And i didn’t want this me to come back, i havent been like this since Year 10, and I thought because im 20 it will go away, but ever since i lost ATRL my life is falling apart slowly, i got no friends except for one, but his all in norway, my family hates my guts, and this boy who seems to like me, but only cuz he feels sorry for me, i just want a bf like him but in my own town so i can hold someone, but i don’t have anyone to hold, i feel so alone, i got 2 shrinks, but nothing is gonna make me feel better, i just want a bf or at least a female friend so i can go to places with, someone i can talk to, and have someone there for me no matter what, but everyone hates me, even my uncle starts rumors that i never did, just so everyone hates me….and he knows im not that kind of person, i was a good person when my dad was alive, i don’t know how to live life without him :( he was my best mate. we went to concerts, pubs, drives, holidays to everything together. but secretly he must of hated me to even kill himself. Mum has to leave the house everyday to get away from me, im just so lonely.
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